I think this is my coming out
I was opening up on mastdon about some concerns I had around an upcoming family event some of the people that would be there...
As I was writing a follow up post... I penned the following without any filters or self-consicious editing.
I have been thinking about how to write this for a while and I guess this is the most honest and best version we'll get.
Also I just realized this is the first time I've said in public that I'm non-binary
I cant express the levels of joy and relief I am feeling.
I didn't know this would be this big of an emotional moment for me
I've felt like "i'm not allowed..." to participate in pride month or other things because I am a hetero male (I guess? fucking terminology is fucky) so it always felt like my experience wasn't "hard" therefore I shouldnt engage with things because it would be stealing the spotlight from others that more deserved it...
But there was a time where I read about Genderself - https://gender.fandom.com/wiki/Genderself - and I was so ecstatic because that is always how I've felt....
I'm not a "man".... My gender is me. And I want to feel strong and hard and soft and gentile all at the same time.
I never talked about it with people because I figured it was just me being too heady and no one really thought about things like that like I did.
But when I saw that there was a word for it.. I was over the moon! I checked in on that page for days just to feel the joy of being seen again and again.
So yeah...
I'm Evan.
I use he and they pronouns.
I'm one of the ways being nonbinary looks like.
